Math test #1 D

Well as Ive stated, I am in college. After ten years I am finally able to go back. Ive got a lot on my plate though!! Back in 2000 when I dropped out, my grades weren't so good. Now I'm paying for it. I have to take Math 113 again. College Algebra. Yeah, I barely remember how to work a simple equation much less all this other crap they expect me to know. Now, I have to make at least a C in this class. If not, I will no longer be able to be a part of the nursing program. Nursing is my dream and I feel like its not fair for a math class to keep me from it. But such is life. Nothing is fair right?
So a friend of mine who was a math major and who has graduated and who loves to do math (is she crazy??) has decided to take me on. She is an absolute blessing to me. She is charging me almost nothing because she wants me to pass, and she knows that my finances are well...barely there. So we've been working together and after a 5 hour session the day before my first test, i felt really good about it. Which is amazing because I'm absolutely horrible at math. She literally explains things to me as if I'm a child. Well, I went to take my test Sunday, feeling great about it, that is until I pressed submit and saw that I missed 7 out of 20, which gave me about a 65%. I cried all the way home. I felt like a failure and I knew I let my tutor down.
I sent her a text and told her of the grim news. She told me don't give up. So, I'm not going to. I'm going to conquer this Math113. I have to. 

THANK YOU KRISTIE!! I'M GONNA MAKE YOU PROUD!!!

Party time!

Peyton's party went off pretty much without a hitch!! The cake was ready early which NEVER happens!!
I went and bought his radio flyer scooter which he loved!  I knew we were going to have a good turnout.
Hot dogs were being made, punch was getting cold,a text came through and then came the tears. Except they were not from any of my kids. They were mine!! I realized how much it means for my friends and family to join in on these such occasions, because one of my best friends in the world said she may not make it. My heart broke and my eyes welled up. I couldn't imagine why I felt the way I did. I didn't let my friend know how upset I was I just responded with an 'ok'.  She ended up coming to the party and I was so happy! She has little ones the same age as Peyton and he loves him to death.
I guess I have learned from this experience that somethings even as small as showing up to one of your friends kids birthday parties can mean the world to them. Maybe I should think twice now before deciding not to go to something I'm invited to. Just another life lesson for me I guess.
Peyton received many great gifts and it was so wonderful to have everyone there. They may not realize it, but their presence shows me a kind of support that I need in my life! Yes I know it was Peyton's party but all the same, I appreciate everyone that came!!!

Birthday Fun...well not yet

Lots to do! Today is Peytons 4th Birthday party. Oh dear where did the time go? This is his second birthday since his dad left, and Im hoping to make this one extra special, since dad has not shown his face in months. The last thing I want my 4 year old to ask me at his party is, "Where is my daddy" Oh how silly of me. Peyton wont ask about him, You cant miss what you dont have right? Yeah that goes for absent parents. I dont feel its my job to keep reminding Peyton that he has a daddy who doesnt give a damn about him. It was my job to encourage the relationship, which I did no matter what. But I cant make a grown man want to see his son can I?
So today is all about my baby boy, the man of the house. I hope he absolutely has a ball today! Thomas the Train birthday cake, hotdogs and punch and a whole playground to run around.

Lets Get This!!!!

How did I get here??

Well, this is monumental for me. I'm actually attempting to write a blog. Wow. I pretty much feel like i have a story, but don't we all!! Interesting or not we all have one. I'm not sure if mine falls in the interesting category but that's OK with me if it doesn't.
So yes, I'm 31 and i have been married AND divorced twice. This good Catholic girl, has had children out of wedlock as well. Let me clarify:
I met Paul and at 20 years old, I fell in love with him. Why? I have no idea. He was completely Not my type and not at all good for me. I got pregnant for my first child, and dropped out of college, which was the biggest mistake of my life. I gave birth to Sadie Elizabeth October 17, 2000. Paul and I married May 19th, 2001. My second daughter Sophie Grace was born October 29, 2002.  Things got bad, and Paul was doing things he shouldn't. He ended up in Jail for 9 months and we he got out I decided that he had put me and my children through so much that I had fallen out of love.  We separated and divorced. He moved to Tennessee where he now resides and was recently married to a woman who is a wonderful Stepmother to my daughters.

After Leaving Paul, I met a man who was not only good looking but charming. he fell in love with me and I followed. We moved in together. He had a son. I got pregnant and we got married. Peyton Keith was born Sept 8, 2006.  Roland I soon found out was bipolar. He ended up coming home one Saturday in May and told me he was leaving. It was completely out of the blue and I was devastated. It took me almost 6 months to completely come to terms that he wasn't coming back...but I did.  And apparently when he walked out me, he walked out on his son. His relationship has slowly dwindled away. I haven't seen or heard from him in 2 months. Not even a call to wish his son happy birthday. His loss.

This is just some history and background of why I am where I am today.....A HAPPY SINGLE MOM OF 3!!!
 I am a Server at Logan's Roadhouse full time, and after ten years i am back in College at McNeese State University, as a Nursing major.